A Time of Reflection

Covid-19 and Anniversaries

This time of year is always one of reflection for me because it is so filled with anniversaries. Some happy, and some (shall we say less so). On Wednesday the 1st of July it will be a full six years since my first big seizure (one change is that I can now spell seizure, this is a joke by the way so you're allowed to laugh).

But mainly the changes have all been physical. I tire so very easily and indeed I need to have a sleep mid-afternoon almost everyday and if for some reason I have to skip a day then I'm going to be very adversely effected the following day to the point where I will be unable to do anything. 

My memory is still shot to pieces, which also makes functioning very difficult. I write everything down and I mean everything but even so getting by is hard. Remember to do all the little (and not so little things I need to do) and then remembering what I've done. Both in an administive sense but also an autobiographical one. Lot's of things go, maybe most things things aren't fully intact until 2010, which is now getting to be a very long time ago. 

But I have now accepted that I'm not going back to the Old-Adam, but I probably said that last year it's a slow process. 

But the new-(ish) problems arising from my Seizure and Epilepsy et al combined with my old problems because of Neurofibromatosis  do make me anxious for my future.  

On a more positive note Friday (the 3rd) is the 3rd anniversary of getting Olive and she has brought a lot of happiness to Emily, Renee and my lives. Even if she can be rather demanding at times. 

But I have my own cat now, Panda who is not without his own demands.  Indeed I had to stop typing this to go prevent him peeing on the floor. Cats! 

But he's a lovely chap. 

There are some other anniversaries as well. But the big one is on Sunday July 5th. 5 years since ordination and of course 10 since starting this whole journey and of meeting Emily. 

In the outside world. Covid-19 is still sweeping the world and the UK and I've been in basically total self-isolation, I see Emily and Renee but even there I'm careful not to make physical contact. 

Mum has also been isolating but I've been Zooming with her every day for a chat and to study the weekly Torah reading.  Then of course there is my weekly Talmud Study with Tina.  As her girls were home from school I got to 'meet' them, they're lovely and they got to meet Panda. They were very taken with him. 

So even during Lock-down I've been far from lonely. If anything I've been more sociable than normal. 

Well that's brought us up to date

A week of anniversiers

First of all an apology this post is comming from my IPad and as such the spelling might be even more idiosyncratic than normal, my laptop died and is currently in Stoke with Rebecca seeing if it can be repaired. But between my phone and this I am managing okay.

Again not much has changed since my last posting. I've completed the training at AgeUK and have started making home visits, which I am enjoying a great deal.  I'm still hanging out with Panda (altnuecat). And studying Talmud with Tina and Francesca.  Today marks 5 years since my first big seizure and now as always when a mile stone like this roles by the more I become aware that at the time, and indeed for ages there after I had not realised how utterly life changing it was going to be, and that I now a accept that I'm going to have to reassures and recalculate what I'll be able to do more or less on a permit ate bases. I can still basically manage one thing a day, yesterday I did a visit with the elderly gent I'm visiting though AgeUK it was a pretty long visit and I enjoyed it and I'm pretty sure that he did too but I was utterly wiped out by the time I got back indeed I only just made it back to the flat in time (the only reason I remember this is because of the detailed notes I made at the time).

Tomorrow is also an anniversary, an anniversary in that case of getting Olive. Unlike the above this is a very positive anniversary. She has made a big and positive impact on my life and I think on Emily's as well.

I have also been continuing with Daf Yomi which has been a mixed bag but over all very positive. Today's daf has been was practically interesting (Arachin 16).

And of course the big Anniversiry is on Friday. 4 years since ordination, which means it's nine years since going to Jerusalem and starting this whole journey (3312) days. Wow just
wow.